In Memory of Pat Waldron
December 14, 2013
We often wonder why. Why does God do as He does? Why does God let an innocent child die while allowing evil men to walk the earth? We perceive an injustice, and, unable to rectify it, out of the depth we cry out to heaven for help. We temporarily forget that God is perfect justice and His ways are not our ways (Is 55:18). We do not have infinite wisdom so we are ignorant to all of the consequences of our actions, the ripples sent out from the pebble when it hits the water in the lake.
I often do my personal prayers, my consecration of the day to God, as I drift in and out of sleep in the early morning hours. Over the past year I have been having flashbacks to long forgotten memories during that fuzzy part of the day when I am half-asleep and half-awake: memories of my misbehavior as a child, teen, or young adult. Incidents are vividly recalled, such as not being a good pet owner, failing to feed my fish, my dog on time, shoplifting some trinket, lying to my parents. Little things, venial sins mostly. I know that I don’t need to confess them because they had slipped from my memory decades ago.
But the God in my conscience has not forgotten, and He as deigned not to allow me to forget. These little pebbles are still causing ripples in the deep waters of my subconscious. God leads people during their sleep, just ask Jacob or Joseph.
These memories tormented me at first, until a loving friend pointed out that this early morning recall was actually a blessing. God was granting me the grace to remember some of my many imperfections. He was allowing me to repent for them in this life., thus, hopefully shortening my incredibly long purgatory sentence. (If I may be so bold and lucky as to deserve heaven’s waiting room!). “Have mercy on me in your kindness, O Lord.”
I would like to relate one memory that returned to me last week. Continue reading.
John received his Master of Arts degree in Theology from Catholic Distance University. Graduating summa cum laude, John’s achievement was a source of inspiration and encouragement to his brother inmates. Thank you to all who supported his studies. (Photo: John and some of his supporters at the Graduation ceremony at the prison. October 2013)
John responds to comments about his article in HPR:
November 10, 2013
John’s article: “The Power of the Religious Habit: A True Story” was published in Homiletic and Pastoral Review on October 22, 2013. In the following post, John responds to the comments.
I would like to thank everyone for their comments and interest in my little article. I apologize for taking so long in responding, but I do not have access to the Internet. I would like to make the following responses to:
Phil Ferguson: yes, a religious who wears the habit is constantly approached by strangers on buses, trains, and planes. Some unburden their hearts or ask questions which may lead them to Christ’s Church.
Bishop Emanuel: thank you for your work for Christ as a successor to the Apostles. Although you are “retired,” you are always a shepherd in the order of Melchizedek.
Apollo F. Salle: thank you for providing an important fact regarding the Filipino revolution f 1986.
Nancy: yes, there is always hope, even in modern Sodom. Continue reading.